Today... I couldn't talk to you. I really hope you're feeling so much better, because if you're sick, so am I. I need you and it kills me when I can't talk to you. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I can't wait until we are next to each other... and I can just watch you breathe. I miss you too much to sleep.

You're the one for me, Jaime, and nothing can change that, nobody and no time.

i read that now and wonder if you can even remember writing such a thing, full of naive promises and untarnished wishes.